remission
Please take those bad thoughts far away and remind us all you’re
not afraid. If it comes back they’ll be hell to pay once again.
It begins with one incision. Optimistic for remission. Maybe I’m
the one who should listen more often. So we take a knife and cut out
pieces that don’t seem right. And it takes a life, but I’m
not letting it poison mine. I remember what you said to me. We could
slow our own recovery if we soak up too much sympathy for ourselves.
I’m a stranger in a foreign room. As I try my best to comfort
you. Got my fingers crossed hoping very soon this will end.
x's
& o's
I’ve been meaning to tell you that you were in another reoccurring
dream of mine. And I’ve been meaning to ask you, have we met or
are you just a figment of my mind? The more I waste my time thinking
about the words I shouldn’t write. And knowing all too well I’ll
take the bait, she’s leaving x’s and o’s by her name.
I can’t explain this attraction. I swear to you it only happens
when I close my eyes. Never a big fan of fiction. I think I’m
converting just to serve this fantasy of mine. No ink in my last pen.
You’ve dried it out with run-on sentences. She’s writing
now with dark lipstick instead. Engraving x’s and o’s in
my head. And she’sgot a red dress on in the act. It should blend
well with the bleeding.
The bandages are heart-shaped, just like that imaginary wound I’m
treating. I’m only trying to help you understand where I’m
coming from. No one else can. So follow me until my shadow ends and
may the sun never go down again.
Honestly, the more I waste my time thinking about the words I shouldn’t
write. And knowing all too well I’ll take the bait, she’s
leaving x’s and o’s by her name.
kill
my confidence
The only thing I ever cried about, I lied about, as I’m lying
now. The only words that even matter now, I’ll leave ‘em
out. This conversation’s left me little doubt that she’s
sorry now. And she’s not allowed to kill my confidence. So tell
me how your story’s out and so watered-down. Bye, bye.
The only reason I am writing you, is reminding you that I know the truth.
You set me up just like you wanted to. Have you figured out I’m
not bulletproof? This situation, from my point of view, is all over
now. And she’s not allowed to kill my confidence and attitude.
Eye for an eye. Tooth for a tooth. Bye, bye. So don’t act surprised
if I decide to disappear. And pay no attention to what I have mentioned
here. What a selfish display for a girl as humane and dear. I should
have known this was going to happen.
introduction
Excuse my introduction, my head forgets to function. Instead, my hands
start touching you as I sleep. No need for intervention, may I make
one suggestion? This doctor’s filling up the wrong prescription
for me. So we’re finally getting somewhere, I’ll pack my
bags and disappear with one thing in hand. A faded photograph of her
face takes me to the safest place faster than I can. Why do we hide
in the basement pretending everyone’s safe from this master plan
I made up inside my head? How foolish do you think I am?
C’mon, let’s get with the program. Unsure of my intentions,
my good friend. As my time slowly winds down, it won’t be long
before I turn out right.
future
reservation
You tried to walk the line, but tripped on it every time my eyes surveyed
and scrutinized. And you aim to compromise.
While the walls of the room kept us inside and destroyed our voices
over time. Ignored the warning signs I must have read a thousand times.
Or just an honest oversight. But it’s getting better now, like
it should. Convinced I’ve done all that I could. And I hope there’s
some more room in heaven. Got a future reservation planned. So nod your
head if you understand. ‘Cuz I hope there’s some more room
in heaven. Like the distance to the stars, my happiness is much too
far for you to reach and to disarm. Now look how close we are. There's
no need to ever activate alarms and wait for a delayed response.
the
imposter
So this account is overdrawn again? Or have I forgotten to put something
back in? No time to think about my own reaction. You’re playing
with my head. And what’s the point of this security? I’ve
fallen victim to another man’s scheme.
“It’s nothing personal,” you’re trying to tell
me. Shedding all my skin as the guilty party wins. It’s after
midnight. You’ve been identified. Half asleep you sent me on my
way again.
And I’ve wrestled with my principles. Everyone’s persuading
me to turn you in. A violation of my privacy. Never imagined this would
happen to me. So have I failed to live anonymously? Blending in we mask
the targets on our backs.
in
the sea
So come on, we’ve got to make it out to the ocean, where the sun
will be setting down. And we’ll dive into the deep, cuz the better
and better I feel in the sea. So come on, the water’s getting
high. And hold on, as we swell with the rising tide.
And we’ll drift into the night, surrounded by threatening skies
in the sea. And the fog is rolling in, just like you said the night
this all began. As we feel the darkness all around and when we talk,
there’s nothing coming out of our mouths. So come on, it’s
time we settle down in the ocean, near the bottom to be found. And we’ll
live so peacefully, cuz the better and better I feel in the sea.
better
off
I’m better off now that my back is turned and I can’t see
a thing. So go ahead and do what’s necessary, I’ll be waiting
in the wings. And I assume if you should ever be compelled to smell
the flowers that I have planted all myself – it took me hours.
You’re better off with your head down staring at the ground feeling
sorry for your self. So do what you want.
And you should know I would never call you out, or be a stranger. So
tell me, what is this about? I’m sensing anger.
What are you so scared of? Open up your heart, ‘cuz we’re
only trying to help. You’re better off with your head up higher.
You'd better stop feeling sorry for yourself.
So do what you want. You’re safe again if you wander back.
not
on my watch
So what the hell do we know? Our response is much too slow and questions
linger still. Everybody’s waiting for you to come back laughing
after fucking with us all. Should I have been easier on you? After you
suffered more than anyone,
never did I under estimate you, I never did once. I wish there was a
reason for taking one from me boy, you put up one good fight. Everybody’s
praying you’re somewhere up there sailing over us tonight. I never
did once, not on my watch.
must
be friday night
Everything’s keeping me down. Can’t see what’s up
there, I’m facing the ground. And I don't feel sorry for me. It’s
what I prefer at the end of the week. I’m alone in my room, so
it must be Friday night. A cigarette’s burning my hand. There’s
ink on my face and a drink on the nightstand. The clocks are all flashing
on 12:00. Deep in discussion with only myself. I’m alone in my
room, so it must be Friday night. Oh, let it rain, let it fall. Let
it drown me in pools of you, so I can finally sleep.
and
I worry
I’ve been getting fed up. Oh, so sick of this big fake smile.
When they say, “You with your juvenile noise,
time to grow up, you’re in denial.” If I was starving for
fame, to get my name in big bright lights. I’d go charter a small
plane and fall out of the sky. And you’ve been licking your red
lips so long waiting just for this. My hands have been keeping my mouth
shut from everything spilling out.
Despite all the shame I’ve already caused, get ready for more.
I’m numb to the pain that rattles my bones.
Yeah, I have felt this before. And I worry that you’re on to me.
I’m your prey, your own casualty. It’s funny how fate saves
us in ways so unpredictable. And in the end, you will never get back
what you put in. Despite all the shame I’ve already caused, get
ready for war. I’m numb to the pain that rattles my bones. Yeah,
I have felt this before.
suddenly
Suddenly, I just found myself waiting for the phone to ring.
And I‘m hiding out simply ‘cuz it’s scaring me. Not
relying on the people that I ought to be. Another month or two of everybody
testing me. And it’s time. So much to do, I’ll be lucky
just to open up this parachute. As we’re falling closer I’ll
be holding onto you. So wake me up when it is over if I get through.
And all the things to you I promised will be coming soon. And it’s
time. I’m tired of writing on the back of these postcards. Describing
everything that you’ve missed so far. I’m kicking this bad
habit on my own. I’m not surprised, that it’s never obvious
to all the other guys. When I’m with you I’m invisible,
it’s my disguise. So everybody get behind me, you can form a line.
Just hope you’re comfortable standing there your whole life.
windshield
Any way, I can help you through the day? I for one, know the sun, so
I’ll tell him to stay out. This letter grade, you got an ”A”,
congratulate yourself kid. Would I have known that today’s your
birthday? I’ve been sitting here all day thinking that today’s
your worst day. We’ll celebrate and stay up late, and watch our
favorite TV show. Would you know, it was cancelled yesterday. We’ll
get that guy, who threw that rock into my windshield. I can only ask
why he wouldn’t give a shit about how he thinks I’d feel.
And no one can describe, as patient as I am, how bad I want this deal.
So we’ll get that guy who threw that rock into my windshield.
Yesterday all across the state, on the news they showed your face,
a nd your name, your hiding place, and I’m afraid it’s too
late. By the way, at the bottom of the page, on the line, I signed your
name and your whole life away.
wait
for me there
I don’t mind if you sit beside me in everything we do. To some,
it’s nothing new. Would you wait for me there - You said you would
so. Would you wait for me there - I thought that I could. In a way it’s
official, nothing’s really changing at all. But they’ll
miss her, of course they will. If you recall what I asked you in summertime.
And if you don’t know it already, I’ve got something in
mind.
on
elvira street
What an awful start to this New Year for us all.
We’re picking up the pieces of our hearts that broke apart.
So here’s to all your courage and your strength for fighting hard.
For everybody loves you, you’re the namesake in our hearts. And
it’s gonna be fine over time. Memories of climbing trees on Elvira
Street. Sinking our feet into the sand at Redondo Beach. And though
our one & only is gone
We need you to keep carrying on. Cause you’re the one we look
up to, I won’t stop praying for you. And it’s gonna be fine
over time.
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